Fear Less, Hope More

Toodles. How have all of you been? :) Week 10 in school doesn't feel as bad as I thought it would be. Everything just zooms past super quickly. Chinese Intensive and Lectures are fun too! Teehee. I think time really flies. Nearly half a year has passed :/ That is super scary to think that O Levels are just a stone's throw away. However, I will surely do my best and study harder during June Holidays! I think though June Holidays may seem somewhat scary with all the packed schedule, I can't wait for it too. I can't wait to get my Hello Kitty Polaroid, I can't wait to visit my cousins in Malaysia, I can't wait for study sessions with Yun Ying, I can't wait for outings with Yun Ying, I can't wait for shopping trips with Mommy, I can't wait for outings with perhaps Kiang Rae, I can't wait for outings with An Qi, I can't wait for dance camp, I can't wait for so many many things! I really hope I can spend my June Holidays wisely and not think back and regret not having managed my time better :) I shall pray that everything will be smooth flowing for me and everyone out there! I will end here and sorry for the short post ^^ Bye, xoxo.

Today's special moments are tomorrow's memories. ♥

Hate Less, Love More

Just the other day, we've gotten back all our results. I would not say that it was good, neither would I say that it was bad. Then I was thinking what should I post and rant about and I finally got an idea :) which is to post about the 2 kinds of people I do not like when receiving our results. I am posting this not because I am bored or anything but I felt rather annoyed having to experience these kind of situations in a span of 2 days which I know I can have no one to blame, hence, typing my rants in this post. I know it is a rather ironic and contradicting topic as to my post title but I shall still blog about it! Disclaimer : This is not targeted to any specific person.

(1) "Always Expecting More" Group
I am not saying that it is wrong to expect more like who doesn't! Everyone expects more from themselves and this is rather ordinary but what I detest is that those who are already doing very well, expecting the better. A common scenario is :
A : "How are your results?"
B : "Eh, bad..."
A : "How bad? Like what are your grades?" *grabbing her B4 paper, hoping that they are of the same standard at least*
B : "Hmmmmm, A1 but I'm rather disappointed, I thought I could have done better..."
A : *Speechless*
I'm sure Person A would be thinking in her mind "Hello? You call that bad? What am I then? Fail? There you are getting an A and still feeling disappointed then me getting a B4 should cry my heart out?" I'm not saying that Person B can't expect more. Yeah, he can, he has the right to but spare a thought for the weaker ones okay? Be happy for your A1 and not expect a perfect score or something because there are others out there weaker than you, feeling upset about their score and most importantly, being envious of your results yet, you could say it's bad.

(2) "Always Saying They Have Failed after the Exams yet Scoring High Marks" Group
I am somehow guilty for that because my results do come unexpected say for example, my results for Amaths were rather shocking for I knew I had done badly for Paper 2 cause I left many many questions blank and when I asked others, they told me they found it relatively easy. I was simply just shock and even cried a little after the paper which I found myself stupid after sometimes. But I never claim that I will fail or anything cause I am still betting on the last sign of hope. Whereas, this group of people claim that they would fail and everything and when their results come back, you could simply fall of the chair. A common scenario is :
A : "How was the paper huh? I found it hard..."
B : "It's sooooo bad! I confirm fail already."
A : "Yeah! I am not confident of passing, what's more getting an A"
When results are back...
A : "So how was it? Like I've expected, I failed by a few marks."
B : "Ohhhh, it's okay... You could do better next time!"
A : "Sigh, nevermind. So how did you fair?"
B : "Hmmmm, rather disappointing, I got an A2, nearly an A1"
A : *Once again, Speechless*
What is your definition of fail? Fail means not getting an A1? If it is, then state it properly! Why must you let someone feel more assured with the word FAIL. I think it is more comforting to just say "It's okay, we could always work harder together next time!"

I know I might sound a little angry but actually I'm not :) I was merely relating how I felt the day where I collected my results and what I should do to make myself feel better :) I indeed feel better now but I hope that those reading this don't take it to heart and no hate comments please? Okay, Bye and till then! ^^

I wake up and think dreams are real

For the past few days, I've been thinking of what things to post about and there really isn't much things to post about actually. This shows how mundane my life has been. I promise I'll post more interesting stuff soon and thus, will simply leave you all with the picture above and you may want to click on my hello kitty post as I've updated it. Bye and till then.

The Journey in Crescent Dance

I remembered myself saying that I would blog about this before closing my blog temporarily for midyears and I'm super terribly sorry for not posting this before I closed down my blog. So here I am, back with the post! As you all know, we officially stepped down on the 12th of April. It's kind of not official yet as we still have dance camp in June which I am so looking forward to~ *screams* Without further ado, I shall start on my timeline! *Wheeeeeee~*

2009

(1) AUDITIONS
I remember myself being oh so excited and scared as I was looking at the respective Sec 1s who were auditioning back then. I was super and I really meant superrrrr scared for everyone were in such a good shape, splits and stuff while there I was being shy and nervous. I'm thankful that the auditions did not look out for skills but they look out for the passion instead. I remember the Sec 4s (then) telling us that if we are really keen in joining the CCA, we should have the undying passion for Crescent Dance and I really kept that in mind. In fact, I still remembered which Senior told us that! After the auditions, I knew very much that I would be part of the Crescent Dance Family one day.


(2) Dance Camp '09
It was my first ever camp in school and I was so looking forward to it! We interacted a lot with seniors as we formed groups and senior made for us breakfast and we had nightline and farewell! It was so so so fun then and it was unlike those camps that I had thought it was so from then on, I enjoyed every single dance camp we had though it's only 2! :(


(3) AYG
I swear this was definitely the most memorable experience taking part in a mass dance for the first time in my life! :) I remembered how my group of 8 being the smallest size among all the Sec 1s had to lift the big blue cloth together. It was a no easy job as us, being the smallest size which also means being the shortest, with the slightest strength had to lift the cloth till the standard of our stronger batch mates but we definitely did have fun as a group, laughing, enduring and performing. Because of AYG, we grew especially close to our Sec 4 seniors then which we respected and liked so much as they were indeed the ones who trained us to shape as well as setting high expectations for us. I would say I really loved that batch of seniors and I was even tearing when their batch huddled together and cried after the performance. This made me cherish my time in Crescent Dance more :) So sorry that I've got no pictures for this event but I promise there will be pictures subsequently! Also, it was a H1N1 period back then and there were many chaos! Many were quarantined and there were many changes here and there and the unlucky thing is, I had fever on one day and I was told I could not preform. I remember myself crying super badly as I saw everyone leave in buses for the indoor stadium but I am super glad that Ms Sim eventually allowed me to perform as "Group C needs me!"


(4) National Day Parade
I have to thank this event as, though not many people took part in this event since it was optional, I really loved the group of Crescent Dancers who performed in this together as we became closer and understood each other more. This event too made me cherish my time to study for I did really badly for Mid Years in Sec 1 and I told myself that I must really buck up and I did! In fact, I got 3 As and 1 B which was a great improvement :) I also loved the times where Say Hwee and I grew especially close in this event and we queued up for Ice Cream, Old Chang Kee and I think I've never told this to anyone before but I sort of dropped a drop of ice cream on my costume. I was super panicky and Say Hwee was laughing throughout but she still help me clear the mess though the stain was there. Hehe and I was so thankful to the flap on our AYG costume as it really covered up the whole stain. Yipeeeeee~


(5) Appreciation Night
This event was alongside with another dance camp! Come to think of it, I just realised that we had 2 dance camps. Hehehehe :) How fun it was! Appreciation Night was a very special performance put up by us and organised by our seniors for all our parents who were supportive towards us during the AYG period. It was a very unique performance as it was only opened to our parents and Sec 4 seniors so Yipeeeee~


2010

(1) Dance Camp
Dance Camp once again was super fun! :) We had farewell and nightline and the then sec 3 batch which is currently one year older than us did the farewell so nice that we decided that we should do an even nicer one but as 2011 was a busy year for many, we pushed back the date for farewell and I was unable to attend as I was overseas! :( Nevertheless, I can't stop looking forward to the dance camp to spend quality time with my juniors. Heheheh


(2) YOG

I guess this was the major major event of the year! YOG is really fun and I enjoy the late night practices and dancing in the water! Mandai Hill Camp was a super big place which really brings me fond memories of my dance mates and I eating together and laughing out loud :) However, the floating platform was the best! I really love the waiting time where we will study, eat, camwhore, play and talk so so so much and I'm sure that developed a greater bond between many people. I became super close to my juniors too as many of them were surrounding me in our positions for the dance and I'm grateful for that. They were really a nice bunch of juniors :') When YOG ended, we were all super sad as we had had great experiences and fun rehearsals which we could never forget and up till date, I still remember the official date of the opening ceremony - 14 August 2010! I LOVE YOG!


(3) Open House
I would say this is quite an important event to me as the Sec 2s were put in charge of the whole organisation of our dance booth! I'm so honoured to be given a chance to design the dance brochure with Say Hwee and Amy I think and I feel that we all did a pretty good job in designing it. Also, what I gained most from this was my learning how to walk on stilts. I have always wanted to try stilts since young when I went to a fun fair with people walking in stilts around and it was one of my dream - to walk on stilts. Never in my life did I expect myself to achieve on of my dreams in Crescent Dance. I was shocked that I had the courage to walk on stilts but I am also fortunate to have so many seniors guiding me patiently through the process :) Thankyou! :)


2011

(1) Campfire
This was the first campfire dance I took part in as I was down with HFMD when I was in Sec 2 :( And it was really fun though we weren't involved in the campfire but just performed for the new Sec 1s. Sadly, we didn't get to take any photos as everything was super rush like we ended school, then change and tie hair and we just went to showcase our dance to the new sec ones :) Overall, it was cool dancing in front of the fire. HEHEHEHE


(2) SYF

THIS IS THE ONE THAT IMPACTED ME THE MOST. We went through the toughest training and still had a common goal. The tears, sweat, 'blood', bruises (well I had when I fell down during the rehearsal cause I stepped on my clothes and it the bruises were really bad :P ) were really worth it for we had achieved what we wanted to. It's not purely the results but the bond between all of us and how we cried after the performance, how we cried when we knew our efforts had paid off and everything~ It was really a super super super super super memorable experience for me and I bet it would surely be one of my greatest achievements and beautiful memory in life.

Click here to read my SYF post previously and here to view the dance.


(3) ASG

ASG was a very fast process. We took only a few days to prepare unlike what we had did for the other events but I thought that this dance was one of my favourite mass dance in terms of the choreography and the costume since everything was simple! I love my props tooooooo~ However, through this event I think my batch too matured in leading our junior to greater heights which is a super good thing! I too enjoy the period where we do not have to attend school for the first five days as we were in max pavallion most of the time and hence, we really interacted a lot especially with my juniors once again :)


(4) Teachers' Day
This event was a self initiated activity by our batch and I think this dance was the one that brought our batch even closer than before through all the planning and practising. I was so pleased that we ended the dance pretty well with super great comments and I think that those who taught the dance should be praised the most. Good Job my lovely batch!


(5) TAIWAN DANCE TRIP

CHECK OUT THE GIF I HAD MADE EARLIER & DID I TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVED THIS TRIP? It was awesome and since it was my first time going overseas alone ( without my family ), it was made it a more memorable experience. I remembered how I was so so excited while preparing for the trip and though I don't really like going back to school during the holidays, I was looking forward to the day where we had the briefings and stuff cause the dancer who had the chance to go there were a really funny and warm group of people. I managed to step out of my comfort zone, not only interacting with my usual circle of friends but my juniors and batchmates and seniors too. I even shared a room with a junior! Through this trip, I also understood my juniors more since I was constantly sharing tables with them during lunch and dinner. Some were not what I had thought they would be, and even cared for me by taking food for me as I was pretty moody or sickly at times. Teehee, I'm such a bad senior :P Being tasked with one of the most important responsibility which is to take care of our fellow dancers made me really happy! I finally had something to care about for the group which is to take care of their welfare and I would like to say, I actually enjoyed carrying the thermal flask around. I REALLY REALLY LOVE THIS TRIP~~~~~


2012

(1) Chinese New Year
Once again, I learnt a new skill! I was the lion's back side for the lion dance performance. This was no joke as the lion was really heavy (though I wasn't the one feeling the weight) and it was super tiring to make a high jump and bend down at the same time. However, it was an enjoyable process as I have never thought that I would be part of a lion dance one day. I think Crescent Dance has really allow me to acquire many new skills in life which I'm thankful for :') Also, we got to perform the Aboriginal Dance we learnt in Taiwan as a batch! Yay, but it made me missed the times I was in Taiwan however, I still did not allow this to affect my performance! ~


(2) Speech Day (our last dance)

Our Last Dance which we thought everyone did a great job! I think I really danced this dance with lots of feelings! ^^ It's good to see your seniors seeing you dance their dance too :) We ended the day sitting around a circle and eating WanTonMee together as this had a special to us as we did that once during our practice before SYF. Such fond memories~


I think that's about all in my journey in Crescent Dance. It has definitely gave me many memorable memories, experience and I think I've matured in many ways as well! I hope that I would be update this post once again with our dance camp cum farewell though I want that day to come, I don't want it to arrive that fast as well :) So far, yet so near! I hope you get what I mean and this is probably one of my lengthiest post ever. Bye and till then~

I take no credits for most of the pictures! :) Most are found on facebook and some are from my friend ^^

Have faith, little one, ‘til your hopes and your wishes come true. You must try to be brave. – The Rescuers ♥